Bored. Boring. Bored.

The purpose of this blog was initially to get over my writer's block which it did seem to do at first. The lack of words came back with a vengeance over the last fortnight though. It has become apparent that my ability to write is directly linked to my mood and unlike the tortured artists out there I cannot put words on screen when I am unhappy.


It is very tempting just to forget about writing but I need to push myself and get something out. When I write a blog post and receive good feedback from readers it makes me feel happy so it is counter-productive to stop writing entirely due to my mood. I have also been asked to write a post for my ex-employers so thought I should probably warm my brain up on my own blog first!


The reason for my unhappiness is for once not to do with OH being away although that isn't helping. As ever, money is the root of all evil and misery. It's very frustrating to be struggling to get ourselves straight and although we know that the lack of cash is only going to be for a year or so, it doesn't help with the immediate problems of rent, bills and food! It's quite scary to think that if both OH and I were working we would be even worse off than we are now due to the added burden of childcare with little or no help from Tax Credits due to the new thresholds. 


The shortage of money and the appalling summer we are having in terms of weather means that I am forced to spend most of my days at home with DS and we are both bored to tears. This isn't good for either of us but there are very few free indoor activities that will get us out of the house. There is also a limit to what we are able to do indoors. He takes after his father in terms of having zero attention span and any attempts to paint, colour or bake with him will result in a tantrum five minutes into the activity. He is far more interested in breaking things and taking things apart than any constructive work whatsoever. Hopefully, over the summer holidays he and DD will be able to entertain themselves as she seems to be far better at occupying him than I am.


There are now less than two weeks before OH is home for the weekend and I can't wait. We will still be skint but just having him around will be such a change from the last two months. We also won't have time to be bored :)